Hi, my name is Cati. When I was 13 I started cutting myself... Worse thing I've ever done I'm pretty sure... When i finally realized I needed to stop cutting, I quickly found out I was addicted to it... Maybe I didn't really want to get better yet... but it seemed like when I finally did want to get better, it was all the more impossible... So then, few months later, I learned about burning myself... it hurt even more... and at first I didn't like it... But few months later i tried it again... and I sorta got hooked on it, too. In March of 2012, I went to a near by mental hospital as an out patient (meaning i only went there for part of the day) I went there for about 2 and a half weeks. I wanted help by then. I wanted to be free of this monster that was holding me down. I wanted depression to die, and happiness to live. So i tried and tried. The most i ever made it without self harm was about maybe a month and a half. Things got stressful again, and I wasn't thinking straight, and I gave in. The devil pulls u down at your weakest... so June of 2012 (few months after) i was hospitalized at the same place. I feel kinda like a failure, coming back and all... but i knew it was a step forward and i tried to keep my head up. I stayed there for a week as an out patient and another week as an inpatient (meaning i was locked in that place!) and of course, the same day I got home, I cut again. I was weak. I didn't think no self harm was ever possible. Now I've been doing what i can to get better. Keep looking at my blog to see how I'm doing. I've been doing a lot better than i was a few months ago!